THE MATH: (GRAND WATER TRINE Moon + Vesta + Neptune Rx) SQUARE Venus + Sagittarius) = I do not know
THE WEAVE:
Vesta and Venus play
cats-cradle, on the island….
"How did you get here, Vesta?"
Venus asks. Vesta shrugs,
"I told you, I was wandering."
"Yes, but why did you
choose to enter the Stargate,
not knowing where
it leads?" Venus pries.
Vesta sighs, and glances
at the Stargate, remembering
a writing from her
diary, last January.
She speaks it...
"I DO NOT KNOW.
'What are your visions
for the future?' the Astrologer
asks us. I ask mySelves
with my Heart’s eyes.
I feel so empty
of everything I have ever
been, that I no longer
know what I want, and most
days, I do not want
anything but a vague idea
of growth, and, sharing
what Love we can make
here, in a crumbling, passing
wisdoms between us, like seeds.
My future is a blank
road with no signposts. I look
to the Stars. More than anything,
I want to know them better, but
Earth-bound as I am, I must assess,
what is it that I have
to offer? Who can I not
bear to be far from? And who
can I bear to be close to?
Am I a watering hole?
Am I a Well from which others
drink? And what does it mean,
to be that? I see this world
is ending, and everyone is
caught up in different
levels of delusion,
and carrying on. I do not
live there. I have not
lived there for many moons, but
I also do not have the Heart
to tell them they are wasting
Time. I know no better
than they, what to do next.
And it is not my place to say.
It only ever gets me into trouble,
anyways. It is why I am Here
Now, on the Edge of Time, alone.
But I know I cannot stay this Way
for alWays. As much as I
will not deny the entropy
of our society, the Stars say
I may no longer be alone
forever. And so I watch,
and wait."
Venus stares at the cradle,
for a long moment. She plucks
two strings, and weaves
her fingers into the pattern,
new, as Vesta lets go…
"And so now you are Here,
with the rest of us,"
Venus says, when she looks up.
Vesta smiles into her
face, "And so Now I am
Here, with you, Love."