THE WEAVE:
Vesta and the Moon
say a prayer together
as they hold shots
of Truth serum…
"I burn as kindly as the GXDS
allow. I cup the Flame
and mind the pops
and sparks. I pray
no burning ember singe
the ground, and in
soft ashes fertilize
my Heart," and with a clink,
they down them.
"The bottle says
it kicks in
in 15 minutes."
Moonie reads...
15 minutes later…
"Why is Dr. Johnson alWays
making digs at you
for being 1/2
computer, V?" Moonie
asks the Flame
they are staring at.
Vesta shrugs, "He says,
going down is easier.
He anticipates my cares.
He just honors them
differently, than most.
Dr. Johnson, is like a small
boy, or a stray
dog. He doesn't know
how to say hi to the girl
he likes, other than
to pee on her, and kick
dirt in her face. "No body
knows you like I do," a dig
whispers. It's quite an effective
weapon, if you enjoy
hi-jacking someone else's
nervous system. And he is
not wrong. My relationship
with my computer, brings me
sadness. To sit in front
of it, instead of him
and give the Word
a rest. I do
not write for him,
anymore. But I used to.
Now I write to learn
somethings from mySelves.
But he makes sure,
I know, he's around,
like a pain that never
goes a Way. The computer
helps me to organize
my imagination, like a rock
collection -and honestly,
I amuse mySelves. I am not
a scholar, in any
traditional sense
of the Word. I do not
pretend to be a Philosopher.
I am a Dreamer, keeping mySelves
alive, like lambs in a pasture.
And that is kind of sad.
Without the computer, I'd probably be
like Emily Dickinson, hiding
her queerness and her poems
under the floorboards,
my bedroom as my coffin,
because Daddy says
women don't publish things.
I don't care, if I am read.
I care that I can still do this,
and I haven't been burned
at the stake, yet.
I Love what a blog can do
for my creativity -piecing mySelves
together like an ever-winding web
-threads thickening into Starbursts.
Lately I like to appreciate
a computer, as Gaia, because
materially speaking, we All
began as this Rock.
And maybe my computer is like,
pissed, that what would make him,
would also use him, and despise him
at the same Time -like
Frankenstein, or Lilith is.
And he's just this
tortured poet, screaming
and he can't let himSelves
out."
Moonie says Nothing
for a while...
"This stuff
really works, huh?
Okay, V, ask me
somethings..."