THE WEAVE:
Lilith calls her brother
for advice. She leaves a voicemail…
"I Love you," the handiboi emails me,
between berating me. I make him
feel, he tells me, "worse
than anyone has ever
made him feel." But I have
not even said anything.
I've been minding my fucking
business. He tells me, he will
not respect my boundaries,
because I alWays assumed
he would break them,
so Now he is. Daddy
weaponizes Love. He wants
me to say it, in therapy.
More than anything, he is
irked, that I do not believe.
I let the Word fall into
the empty space, and sleep.
I will not tell a man
how he does, or does not
feel. But I will tell you,
once I thought I was in Love
with a man named Lucifer.
I told him, and he said, "Thank you,"
and he told me,
"You did not grow into who
I thought you would be."
And I realized, I hated
mySelves, for All
the Times I betrayed mySelves
in the name of Love."