THE MATH: (Mars + Jupiter CONJUNCT Aries) SQUARE (Mean Lilith + Cancer) = It is an angry dear,
THE WEAVE:
Mars speaks to the Night,
and his bedroom ceiling…
"A Heart
beat like a steady
drum. I tell her to quiet
down, but she won't.
And what a blessing,
that placing an End
to Life is not so
simple. But still,
someTimes, I wish
she wouldn't pound
with so many restless
stories, lost and found.
It is an angry dear,
who Lights my soul, and I
haven't alWays the will,
to control her. Who is
this One that goes over
All the Ways I have been
wronged, late into the Night,
in burning rightness?
The One who plays over
what will soon be said,
but will never be said,
because that is not the Way
Life happens. 'Come back,'
I tell the Mile-Minute Runner,
'And do Nothing.' Can I bear
to not even write a Word
about it, but lay Here? I think,
maybe it is neither my Heart, nor I,
who carries on in the agony
of waiting without waiting
for the moment when
explication will be woefully
appropriate, but some other bitter
figment, seeking to sabotage
with preemptive. It leaves
no opening for listening,
but wants to gush, with bile
from a festering. There is no point
in banishing it. I tell the voice,
'Come home,' again, and again,
to this pounding
Heart, and beat against
the breath, and Here be
softened."