THE MATH: (Venus + Ceres CONJUNCT Leo) = goodNight.
THE WEAVE:
…Persephone Speaks…
"I have never wanted
to be a mother, but
the children of the Under
-World continue to tell
me, I have a motherly
quality, so feminine. I keep
reminding her, "I am not
your mother." I refuse
to tell her what is
best for her, or what to do.
I think this helps her find it.
She makes her own
mistakes, and cries
to me of what she wants
to change. Mostly,
I just tell her that I know
what it is like, to be
at the bottom, and she is
going to be OK.
The proof, for her, is in
the Way I glow, "You are
so beautiful. Any man
would be Lucky, to have you.
Why are you single?
You could be a model."
I told her I don't seek
a man, but I am not opposed
to stumbling into One.
That Night, I looked
at pictures of my form
two years ago. I was
dull eyed, sallow, and sunken.
I wish I could explain
to her, what revival is
like: First, the Death.
But the static of the Under
World, makes it so
she cannot hear me. Her eyes
cloud over, any Time I try.
So I tell her the basics,
"For three years, I allowed
no man, to enter my body.
For three years, I starved
until I learned to feed
mySelves. And Now
I'm whole. And the next
Time, I choose a man
it will not be
because of a Love I cannot
give mySelves.
It will be
because I have extra.
And in the mean
Time, I write
my Way."
I hand her a Doom
Diary, and kiss her
goodNight.